New apartment routines

The last week has been tough. About 18 months ago I started practicing daily routines. And about 8 months ago I went from being a full-time caregiver to a full-time webcrafter. However, I was able to keep my routine because I stilled stayed at home, and I was able to adjust it over time.

This recent move through me for a loop, but Susan talked some sense into me, and made me realize that I needed to grab on to something again, to navigate this new environment.

I practice what I called structured flexibility. I could, and should, write a lot about it, but the basic premise is that I try to be unattached to most ideas or habits*, so I can react with intention when people need help. I discourage clients from unplanned work, but I also specialize in web disaster relief. If my tribe is in need, I can make things happen, because those occurrences happen with an infrequency that make it easy to deal with one crisis at a time. The structured part comes from the forethought of not over-committing myself on emotionally taxing situations, and to my routines.

Moving is very emotional, and if not for folks in general, then for me in particular. It is basically one mini-crisis after another, and it had exhausted me to the point of forgetting to eat or drink.

I am coming out the other end of that now, having my expectations being met (really, just internet access at home, and deciding to continue my caffeine addiction**).

On the bright side, Clover seems to be doing really well. All the parents(!) told us that if we got a larger space we would use it, which is an experiential thing that didn’t make sense to me. Clover runs around, something that wasn’t really possible in the tiny cottage. It is a privilege that I don’t take for granted. We also just switched out our stroller and car seat for larger versions, so I guess there is a lot of change, for all of us.

I am lucky to have Susan here to ground me in my walkabout in maiki-brain. ^_^

*That is a loaded statement, and can’t be explained here without muddling the topic of this post. I do have attachments, though.
** I get headaches if I haven’t had a cup of tea within the last day. It is common, but it worries me.

The Cottage

Susan and I moved, we no longer live at Highwind. Rather, the place is now the Cottage. It named thus because it is a cottage, the kind of smaller house that resides in the back yard of a larger house. In our case the larger house has four people who live there, and we have a nice yard, and everything is cool. We are a couple of blocks from the North Berkeley Bart Station, and that is not an exaggeration, it is two blocks from our cross street to the BART. That kicks ass.

I am going to be talking about this a lot in the coming days, because I have a lot to say, so here is a heads up. ^_^

Moving

In many contexts, that is just about the only thing I am doing. After this episode of my life I think I will try being still for a bit.

At any rate, we are moving residential locations. Susan and I are leaving Highwind and will now be inhabiting the Cottage. It is a nice place, not far from where we are now. It is very near a BART station, and is within walking distance of everything I care about right now (I was worried I would be far from Monterey Market). So, that is exciting. I can’t wait to get out of here.

In other news, I have been pulling in long days as I try to tie up loose ends for clients. It is a give and take. It seemed that with each task I got finished another one came up. I should have declared the latter half of the week offline mode, but everyone had really interesting and important work to do. So, here we are, with hardly a box packed, and more work to do tonight.

The good news is, I am learning so much. I can barely sleep, even when I am exhausted and the dawning sun is beaming into my brain. Once those filters come off, I start going mad with brain activity. It makes me want to find a groove that allows me to fall into that genius spiral without adversely impacting the people around me. I would like to ride it out a bit, take a trip to the edge of my mind…

Or you know, I could just sleep more.